I was shocked and horrfied by the tragic events that occurred in London yesterday. It was painful. The panic as I tried to contact family and friends who work and live in London is beyond comprehension. I find it difficult to understand how a human being can have such a lack of respect for life and kill innocent people like that. What kind of person would do that? Why? will we ever know? I know hate is a strong word, but I hate them, whoever does this. I hate them with a passion. I pray the Lord will intervene and help stop this, as it seems it is only through divine intervention all this madness can come to an end. I think now it has brought some people to reality. The reality of terrorism. Sometimes people don't absorb the impact of it all until it happens in their own backyard. We need to see the world as one community. We need to be one. We need to unite against the carnage these people want to perpetuate. It needs to stop.

james, for some reason, has been phoning me and emailing me, pretending that things are fine between us. He talks about going to see my mother, asking me if I am free for dinner on such and such a day. i don't know if this is some warped coping mechanism of his, ie denial in the worst way, or he is trying to wind me up. I thought of playing mind games with him and pretending to play along then crush his little dream, but I am not that kind of person am I? Does this mean I am weak? Does this make me less secure? I don't know. I just want to move on to be honest. I don't know if he is still seeing that woman. I don't care really. I don't want to be bitchy and say nasty things. It's neve necessary. But I just want him to leave me alone. Nuff said!

_ Ame_